regression

Johnny's Life Regression

Author's Notes: None. JG> is Johnny speaking and V> is Dr Newman.

Johnny sat at the kitchen table as Station 51s A Shift was getting ready to begin. He was all smiles as the rest of the crew began entering the room to get their first cup of coffee for the day.

"Hey Junior! Why the long face?" Roy Desoto grinned at his partner of 5 years.

Johnny smiled up at Roy. "I had the most incredible days off" Johnny was almost beside himself with what he was going to tell the others.

Roy smiled back at him. " Oh yeah, what did you do that was so great?"

"Well, see I took Rachel out on Tuesday night and after our date we went back to her place" Johnny took a drink of his coffee.

"Ah… Johnny! Should you be telling us what you did?" The smile left Roy's face and a red blush moved over it. He could imagine what Johnny was going to tell them.

Johnny looked at Roy for a minute before be started to laugh. "Don't worry partner, I wasn't going to tell you that part." Johnny smiled and wiggled his eyebrows at Roy.

The blush grew brighter on Roy's face. " Okay… well I just wanted to be sure." He sat down, ducked his head and began drinking his coffee quickly.

Chet laugh at Roy's shyness. "Okay, so go on, tell use what you did Gage."

" Okay, anyway, Rachel introduced me to her uncle, his name is Kevin Newman. He is a Life Regression Therapist." Johnny waited for the others to react to that news.

"He is a what? Is that some kind of head shrink Gage? Cause if he is he could make you a full time study." Chet smiled as he went to get more coffee.

" Very funny …No Chet he helps people relive their past life. He records them and plays them back for you to hear what you did when you lived before. It was really cool." Johnny was so excited about letting the guys hear his tape.

"So you did this right?" Roy's voice sounded skeptical.

"Yeah man, it was really cool. You know that I'm Native American and we all believe that when we die we move on to another life." Johnny looked at Roy as he spoke, he was very serious. "It's like we shed one skin and move onto the next."

"So what did this guy tell you Gage? That you where a nut in another life time too." Chet laugh at his own joke.

"No, Shut up Chet, and just look at this." Johnny held up a cassette tape.

The others each looked at the tape in his hand.

"You plan on having us listen to that," Captain Stanley asked.

"Well… yeah Cap. I mean it really is cool and you are all in it too."

Johnny's words about them all being in it got all their attention.

"Really" Cap was the first to speak. He was curious, but he was not sure he wanted to know in what way he was in Johnny past life.

"Yep, Dr Newman said that most of the people you met in each life time is the same ones you will meet over and over again. And that all of those people you met will not always be the same sex that they are in this life time." Johnny smiled at that last thought.

Roy watched as the others moved closer to the table and the cassette that Johnny was getting ready to play.

Johnny placed the tape into the player and the crew of 51s listened as the voice on the tape began to speak.

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A strange mans voice started speaking. He had a very smooth calm voice.

"Okay Johnny, I want you to relax and close your eyes. I want you to let your mind drift. Don't think of anything. I am going to start to count back from ten and I want you to relax more and more with each number as I count backwards. Just listen to my voice and relax. Nine, you are very relaxed. Eight you have no problems laying on your mind. Seven, you are completely relaxed. Six, you will remember everything that you say. Five, you are so relaxed. Four, I want you to pick up your left hand. Three put it back down in your lap. Two, you are very relaxed. One, when I tell you to open your eyes, you will remain very relaxed. I want you to think of room with a door, inside that room is you're past life. You can walk into that room by opening the door. I want you to open that door now Johnny.

In Johnny's mind he could see the door, he reached over and turned the doorknob and opened it. Inside the room there was many doors.

"Johnny I want you tell me what you see." Newman's voice was still smooth.

Johnny's voice sounded like he was far away.

JG> "I see many doors so many I can't count all of them."

Voice> "I want you to walk over to one of the doors and open it."

JG> "I don't know which one to open"

V> "Turn to your left, go to the first door and open it."

Pause.

V> " Have you opened the door?"

JG> " Yes"

V> "What do you see?"

JG> "A town, an old western town."

V> "Do see yourself in this town?"

JG> "Yes, but I'm not me."

V> "Who are you?"

JG> "I'm a woman."

V> "What is your name?"

JG> "Arvila Rankin"

V> Do you see any of your friend there?"

JG> "Yes, Hank Stanley is with me."

V> "What is his name?"

All the men jumped at the sound of the tones going off. They had all become so immersed in the tape that they where startled.

"Station 51, Engine 116, structure fire. 2875 north Highland Avenue. Two eight seven five North Highland Avenue. Time out 8:35.

For the rest of the day the tape was left forgotten on the table. The crew of station 51 was to be kept very busy. It would be late in the evening when they all returned.

Captain Stanley and his crew dragged themselves into the station, The structure fire turned out to be a four alarm blaze that had taken the rest of the day to get under control and to get it all squared away.

As the men filed in to the kitchen, Marco pulled out sandwich meat from the fridge as Chet got the Mayo, lettuce, tomatoes and onion. Johnny grabbed the bread and plates, as Mike made a pot of coffee and got the knifes they would be needing. Captain Stanley and Roy headed for the showers.

As the men took turns taking showers and eating, Chet noticed the tape that had been set off onto the side of the coffee table.

"He guys! Why don't we finish listening to Johnny's tape; I want to see who Cap is in Johnny's dreams?" Chet laugh and brought the tape back over to the table.

Johnny had just finishing up getting out of the shower. He walked into the kitchen to see Chet place the tape back into the player.

Johnny smiled as Chet rewound the tape just a little. Johnny remembered as the tape began.

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V> "Who are you?"

JG> "I'm a woman."

V> "What is your name?"

JG> "Arvila Rankin"

V> Do you see any of your friend there?"

JG> "Yes, Hank Stanley is with me."

V> "What is his name?"

JG> "Ben Rankin, he is my husband"

Chet shut off the tape and busted out laughing, " That is so funny, Cap is married to Johnny" Chet held his stomach as he laughs

"Shut up Chet, you twit." Stanley looked at Chet and the laughter stopped almost immediately.

"Johnny, I think we have had enough of this tape." Stanley turned and walked out of the room. "Gage my office now."

Chet watched as Johnny left the room with his head hanging down. He started to laugh again.

"Let's keep listening to the tape, I want to see if Johnny and Cap had any puppies together." Chet laugh again as he started the tape again.

Johnny walked into Captains Stanley's office. " What did I do wrong Cap?"

"Are you trying to embarrass me you twit. Did you make that tape up? I want you to know that I am about ready to kick your tail out of here. You better start talking to me and you better make it good." Stanley was mad at Johnny for what the tape said about them being together.

"Cap... I didn't mean... I'm sorry. I thought you... all of the guys would get a kick out of it." Johnny looked down at his feet. "I'm sorry sir, I didn't mean to embarrass you in anyway."

" You better have more then that to say!" Hank Stanley was seething mad. He was never so embarrassed in his life. His whole crew was laughing at him and it was Gage's fault.

"I didn't make the tape up Cap. I swear! I only wanted everyone to have some fun with what happened when I did this. I never meant to hurt you sir… Honest." Johnny felt bad, he really didn't mean to hurt his Captain.

Hank looked at Johnny, he could see that Johnny didn't mean anything by it, but it still made him mad, Johnny should have known better. "Alright Johnny, I know that you didn't do it to hurt me. But none the less I was hurt by it." Hank walked around the desk to stand beside Johnny.

Johnny had sucked his lower lip into his mouth and was biting it with his teeth. His head was down on his chest. His eyes where closed. He was so angry with himself; he was such a fool. He wished that he had never met Dr. Newman.

"Where is the tape now?" Hank wanted that tape out of his station.

Johnny's head came up fast. " I left it in the kitchen!" Both men took off at a run to the kitchen.

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After listening to the tape, Roy took it out of the player and looked at. He wondered if Johnny had listened to the whole tape yet. He did think that he had.

Captain Stanley and Johnny came into the room at a fast walk. Johnny saw that Roy had the tape. He hoped they had not listened to anymore of it.

Johnny walked over to Roy and took the tape. He looked at all the men as they stood around him. "I'm sorry guys, I didn't mean for this tape to be a problem." He turned to leave.

"Johnny wait. Did you listen to the whole tape yet?" Roy walked closer to Johnny.

Johnny wondered what the concerned look on Roy's face was for.

"No… I listened to two or three of them, before Rachel and I… Well you know." Johnny had to smile at the thought of what he and Rachel had done later that night.

"Johnny I think you need to destroy that tape right now." Roy turned to the other men waiting for them to agree with him.

Marco walked over to Johnny and put his hand on his shoulder. "Get ride of that tape my friend." Marco squeezed his shoulder and walked out.

Johnny watched as Marco walked away. His face showed that he wanted to ask why he shouldn't listen to his own tape.

"Don't ask Johnny, just dump it," Chet walked by him and went out of the room.

Johnny turned around and looked at Roy. " Roy what is on that tape?"

"Johnny I don't think you should hear the rest of it, it will only hurt you. And I don't want to see you get hurt Junior." Roy tried to take the tape from Johnny's hand.

Johnny pulled the tape back away from Roy. "I think I need to hear this tape right now." Johnny grabbed the player off the table and walked out to his truck.

Johnny walked out to his truck; here he would be able to listen to the tape alone. He figured that what ever was on it must be bad if the other guys didn't want him to hear it.

Johnny sat the player up on the dash and put the tape in he rewound it back. He hit the play button.

V> "Johnny I want you to open the next door."

V> "What do you see Johnny?"

JG> "I'm on a hill looking down over a river."

V> "What else do you see?"

JG> "A Teepee"

V> " I want you to look around you and tell me what you see."

JG> "Oh my god, I see Cavalry soldiers, they are waiting for something."

V> " Do you know who you are? What is your name?"

JG> "My name is Bobtail Bull. I am an Indian Scout with the Seventh Cavalry"

V> "Where are you?"

JG> " I am above the river called Little BigHorn River."

V> " What are you doing right now?"

JG> " We are waiting for the orders from General Custer."

V> " What orders will they be?"

JG> " We will attack the Great Sioux Nation here."

V> "Move ahead. What do you see?"

JG> "I see my commander."

V> "What is his name?"

JG> " Major Reno."

V> "Are you still waiting?"

JG> " Yes."

V> " Move ahead. What do you see."

JG> " We are moving into the valley now"

V> " What are you doing? Where are you now?"

JG> " There is so many. The come at us from all sides."

V> " What are you doing?"

JG> " I sit on my horse and wait. I will not kill my own people."

V> " Are there other Indian Scouts with you?"

JG> " Yes, they too wait, they will not kill."

V> " Is the battle still being fought?"

JG> " Yes, many have fallen on both sides."

JG> "Ahhh…."

V> "What has happened?"

JG> " I feel a bullet go deep in my chest. I am dying."

V> " Do you see who has shot you?"

JG> "It does not matter, many will die this day. I will be one of many."

JG> " I pray to the sprits to take me home. It is hard to breathe now. I can feel my life run from my body. I close my eyes, I breathe no more."

V> " Johnny I want you to come back outside the door."

Johnny sat in his truck; he wiped the tears away as they fell down his check.

Roy stood close by. He hoped that Johnny would want to talk to him. He was afraid that Johnny would take the words on the tape to heart and feel that he had betrayed his own people.

Johnny knew that Roy was standing close by him. He knew he had a good friend in Roy.

"Johnny, are you alright?" Roy placed his hand on Johnny's shoulder.

Johnny could not voice what he was feeling. In his mind he could reason that he was not that Indian Scout now. But, still he knew that he had been there, at Little BigHorn. It all seemed so real to him.

Roy watched as Johnny fought to get control of what he was feeling.

"Johnny I don't want you to feel as if you have betrayed your people. Cause you didn't. Even if you where that Scout, he didn't kill any of his people at the time. He couldn't do it. He died there cause he would not fight." Roy laid his arm over Johnny's shoulders and hugged him briefly.

Johnny hugged his friend back and looked at him. "Thanks for caring Roy. I know that what I did in my past life should have nothing to do with the here and now."

Roy smiled at Johnny. "You are a good man John Roderick Gage. You show pride in your heritage, and pride in who you are now." Roy pulled Johnny out of the truck. "Let's get some coffee Junior."

Johnny started walking towards the station, when Johnny suddenly ran back to his truck. He returned to his friends' side a minute later.

"I have a date with Rachel tomorrow night, I don't think I will talk to her Uncle this time thought." Johnny tossed the tape into the trash can as they entered the truck bay. "I sure don't need that tape anymore either. You know Roy, I have enough problems now without adding my past life into the mix."

Johnny smiled as Roy wrapped his arm around Johnny's head in a half nelson hold and walked into the kitchen pulling him along. Roy smiled 'Yep, Johnny would be okay' he thought as they went in to get some coffee.

The End

Author's note

I did some research on the Little BigHorn, the names where taken from history and used here. It was stated that the some of the Indian Scouts refused to fight against the Sioux. Bobtail Bull was listed as one of the scouts that died at Little BigHorn.

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